Had a smashing Saturday evening at Brewerkz with the airforce guys; though I can't help but notice how drinks weren't flowing as readily fun was. My guess is not only that RSAF is a bad paymaster, perhaps it is as they say, when you have nearly nothing, you have almost nothing to lose.
Judging from Eve's new love handles, it must be quite pleasurable dating Alvin...but she is adorable all the same, no less intelligent too. It is nice to have Adrian near again, even though I've seen him consecutively for 2 nights in a row for drinks, his overflowing confidence is infectious and endearing, always easy to hang around him. Bernard looked pensive the entire time, but I am not interested the least in what passes through his mind. I think i preferred the Bernard that me and JM hung out together with KM and Adrian. Same place, same booze but different mood. Joshua was his usual charming and haughty self, always bored yet highly agitable. Lawrence wore his accustomed worldwisely look all night while Alvin's attention seemed only affixed on Eve. Lucky babe! Chee Siang makes fresh company (and hence conversations) while Alan was inconspicuously missing. Malcolm's more toned down than I recall him to be and KM was hardly there at all. Yejun seemed quite displaced but he is too well-aware to allow external scrutiny so I won't be able to proffer a reason, but I guess the attention he got is more than he'd bargained for. Things were quite high with his butt episode but it's a pretty buttless (or bootless) attempt. Vierra is more British than I know Finnish people to be. She is pretty and blond, great for the kids too!
JM was charming alright, he was quick at apology for keeping me from my girlfriends, i'd have been quite blue if he hadn't been quick enough. He must've been quite mad at me for concluding the night too early but he was smart enough to hush it for for a sweeter afterward kiss :)
It wasn't that difficult probing for a place at Dragon's... but it was, managing conflicts. He must hate the aftermath of every outings. Loved the foreplay, quite some passion... Though I wish it'd be like that more often. Enjoyed the ride back even more, cos I know it was totally against his wishes to send me home :)) He will face more inexplicable drama if he'd let me ride NR home and wose still, alone...
Would have liked more people to come by but I guess there isn't room enough anywhere for the class of 20.
Monday, January 23, 2006
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
2006 (misfortunes) and beginning
So many things have happened since 2006 started that already sees this year to be perilous, when it has barely even started.
Dad just lost his job, and gone too are his priced possessions; car, reputation, pride, privileges to drinks and recreation. Along with his loss, Mum discovered his chalked up credit card bills. All his savings are now gone to fill out the depths he created over the years (for himself). He is 50 and he now has exactly what he had when he was 15-and-starting-out. I can only imagine how he feels. Without a car to ferry him no more, I know life will never again be the same for him. Someone who is used to luxury and having pretentious cronies stick around him having to face the predicament of nearing bankrupcy; while carry on days lonesome and cronies-less, it's scary to even come close to imagining . It is nearing CNY...where people come together to share about the year's worthy gossips, A's trivials, B's achievements, C's secrets-no-more and D'ad's misfortune, which I know will form just half of the more palatable gossip. I only know I won't wish to be around when tongues are wagging.
There will be a couple of outings lined up with he and his friends this CNY and I don't know how I can juggle work, family and him and friends and my heavier heart. Aside to that, I completely fouled up my chances of working at Trix by the last deed I committed. Cass is never gonna trust me with assignments ever again. Life can suck more than I can imagine.
Dad just lost his job, and gone too are his priced possessions; car, reputation, pride, privileges to drinks and recreation. Along with his loss, Mum discovered his chalked up credit card bills. All his savings are now gone to fill out the depths he created over the years (for himself). He is 50 and he now has exactly what he had when he was 15-and-starting-out. I can only imagine how he feels. Without a car to ferry him no more, I know life will never again be the same for him. Someone who is used to luxury and having pretentious cronies stick around him having to face the predicament of nearing bankrupcy; while carry on days lonesome and cronies-less, it's scary to even come close to imagining . It is nearing CNY...where people come together to share about the year's worthy gossips, A's trivials, B's achievements, C's secrets-no-more and D'ad's misfortune, which I know will form just half of the more palatable gossip. I only know I won't wish to be around when tongues are wagging.
There will be a couple of outings lined up with he and his friends this CNY and I don't know how I can juggle work, family and him and friends and my heavier heart. Aside to that, I completely fouled up my chances of working at Trix by the last deed I committed. Cass is never gonna trust me with assignments ever again. Life can suck more than I can imagine.
Friday, January 06, 2006
Altruism
Created a blog for me to document trvials between me and JM, but I just realised that I don't exactly know what to write on the blog. What can I possibly say that is not censor-able about us that will not tresspass social and privacy rights?
Love, we all need that. More... if we can demand it. Which some are better at than others, and ideally speaking, the "others" here are the ones who are better lovers, this is a bane. We should all seek to be as selfish as possible, courtesy of BN.
Love, we all need that. More... if we can demand it. Which some are better at than others, and ideally speaking, the "others" here are the ones who are better lovers, this is a bane. We should all seek to be as selfish as possible, courtesy of BN.
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Soonthorn & the Thai-world
CH is back from France today, today is JM's birthday and I realise that I am hooked on life's greatest intellectual vice; demand for certainty, in a world that is dominated by its very opposite.
I like Soonthorn. He seems like a dedicated man, I like thais when they make the cut. Wait, that statement don't actually just apply to thai-men, but to all men actually. I am sure mediaedge will be more than what I bargained for.
My weight has been fluctuating. I was given up by Emirates cos of my height, my weight'd better perform better henceforth. Cass will then load me more work than she is now. It is a world of appearances. It's a sorry thing when we live in a world whereby only one form of beauty is appreciated. Hah! We shouldn't be sorry because more girls are benefitting from this social norm than not. The Sex industry probably fed more girls than any other industry. Sex and beauty, functions, even if their theories go together, or separate.
I am surprised Jerry is having so much trouble with his girl, but its good cos it means they are working something out together. More tales ahead I am sure.
I like Soonthorn. He seems like a dedicated man, I like thais when they make the cut. Wait, that statement don't actually just apply to thai-men, but to all men actually. I am sure mediaedge will be more than what I bargained for.
My weight has been fluctuating. I was given up by Emirates cos of my height, my weight'd better perform better henceforth. Cass will then load me more work than she is now. It is a world of appearances. It's a sorry thing when we live in a world whereby only one form of beauty is appreciated. Hah! We shouldn't be sorry because more girls are benefitting from this social norm than not. The Sex industry probably fed more girls than any other industry. Sex and beauty, functions, even if their theories go together, or separate.
I am surprised Jerry is having so much trouble with his girl, but its good cos it means they are working something out together. More tales ahead I am sure.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Dilemmas
Just read Jasmine's blog. Jacarandas, she calls it, wonder what that meant. She sounded so angry, I'd think she never got a day past JC. But then again, who isnt angry? Everyone just has so much dirt stuck inside their pipes the dredging might take forever.
HM and KM and her went to catch a movie, just like old days, where the rest of us are "accidentally" excluded and then later blamed for our absences. Funny the way their minds work. Jasmine says the traffic is really clogging her sanity, hmmm...i guess that kinda shift happens when you are let off to Jupiter for awhile, you come back hating everything on Earth. I donno if I crave the opportunity to walk out and breathe sulphur.
Met YL, or EP again after so long, she is still the same, wonder if I should be glad. But one point is proven enough, we still cannot be friends. HM and KM are similarly vengenceful. It's like what transgressed btwn me and our common friend is anything they ever gave 2 hoots. They never did (and probably never will), so why so much to say now?
I guess being assigned to SEMBAB, JM is feeling upset about being separated from Ber (who is going to PL), his lifeline and only real friend in Air Log 8. I am worried about him but I know that the more i worry the more unstable we become...I will leave the nerotic me behind.
Read a line that struck a chord: "The tendency to seek certainty is an intellectual vice, but the best cannot seem to refrain". And yet we are supposed to refrain from dogmatism and scepticism, for the former is harmful and the latter essentially useless. Both are certain and that discounts both as ultimate. Even insisting on having an ultimate is insisting on certainty.
Paradoxes of life.
HM and KM and her went to catch a movie, just like old days, where the rest of us are "accidentally" excluded and then later blamed for our absences. Funny the way their minds work. Jasmine says the traffic is really clogging her sanity, hmmm...i guess that kinda shift happens when you are let off to Jupiter for awhile, you come back hating everything on Earth. I donno if I crave the opportunity to walk out and breathe sulphur.
Met YL, or EP again after so long, she is still the same, wonder if I should be glad. But one point is proven enough, we still cannot be friends. HM and KM are similarly vengenceful. It's like what transgressed btwn me and our common friend is anything they ever gave 2 hoots. They never did (and probably never will), so why so much to say now?
I guess being assigned to SEMBAB, JM is feeling upset about being separated from Ber (who is going to PL), his lifeline and only real friend in Air Log 8. I am worried about him but I know that the more i worry the more unstable we become...I will leave the nerotic me behind.
Read a line that struck a chord: "The tendency to seek certainty is an intellectual vice, but the best cannot seem to refrain". And yet we are supposed to refrain from dogmatism and scepticism, for the former is harmful and the latter essentially useless. Both are certain and that discounts both as ultimate. Even insisting on having an ultimate is insisting on certainty.
Paradoxes of life.
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